Purposeful Life

Forgive my hidden faults. Keep your servant also from willful sins; may they not rule over me. Then will I be blameless, innocent of great transgression. ~ Psalm 19: 12-13

Who's doing all this talkin?

Who's doing all this talkin?
My son took this at the Ft Worth Stock Show!

Monday, May 24, 2010

Rouse with Purpose

I'm sure you have heard the phrase "rabble rouser" before. Do you know what a rabble is? What does it mean to rouse the rabble and what is the rabble anyway?

If you Google "rabble", it will tell you that rabble refers to a disorderly crowd of people, the lowest or coarsest class of people, even a disorderly mob.... Not really a way I want to be described!

So, my question for you is, are YOU a rabble rouser? One who rouses- or gets all riled up- the rabble? Do you want to stir up a disorderly crowd or coarse class of person? Even more important, do you let the rabble rouse you?

I love what you find in the Bible! I found the word rabble- that seems crazy to me, such a common term now in 2010 and it is found waaay back in the Old Testament, used at a time that the Israelites are wandering in the desert for hundreds of years. Did you know that there was a group of non- Israelite people that left Egypt with them, followed and camped on the outskirts? Can you imagine being part of that rabble? It wasn't your Exodus, but you just follwed this big group of people and then you don't ever seem to be going anywhere and there isn't any real food to eat and there seems to be no end in sight? What would you begin to say, how would your attitude be?

The Israelites were already grumpy and tired. I'm quite certain that the rabble being all roused up was not good for their attitude towards this adventure they were on with God. We are on an adventure with God everyday on this Earth. We are in the wilderness many times in our lives. How is our attitude and do we surround ourselves with rabble- do we listen to rabble when it rouses?

In Numbers 11:2, it says "When the people cried out to Moses, he prayed to the Lord". How often do you pray to the Lord, when people are whining and crying all around you? When a friend comes to you, complaining about their husband, their kids, job, life you join in the rabble or do you rise up and call out to the Lord? I'm not talking about judging them or getting superior to them in their time of need, I'm suggesting that we offer to pray with them right then and claim victory and peace in their life. We all know the devil has- and will- come to steal, kill and destroy, so how can we be a warrior in the midst of our experience and our adventure here. How can we rise above the coarse class and share victories in our adventures?

Separate yourself from the coarsest class and disorderly mob and ask God for your provision. Ask God to be your attitude, your heart.. and then share Him with someone as they fight the rabble. To God be the Glory.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

A Story with a Purpose

"Its the most wonderful time of the year!" With Christmas fast approaching, I know you are all in the mood for this song; Im sure you can hear the tune in your head right now in fact.

Unfortunately, if you are like me, you are in the hustle, bustle, tizzy and stress that the season brings. Unable to stop and be still, unable to remember what it is really all about.

I was blessed the other day to hear the song "O Holy Night" coming from the TV. The words and tune to that song humble me instantly and make want to bask in the glow of His mighty presence. Since then, I am trying to do better and remember each day to focus on Him and his Sons sweet birth. The reason for the Season, right. :)

Christmas is the telling and retelling of the most incredible and miraculous story that there ever was. A mere town girl, blessed with the most precious of all infants. Brought by the news of an actual angel and then coming true ~ in a barn of all places. A place that smelled of poop, my friend Crystal Sparks said today. And, yet, the most Holy birth that will ever be. That story is what we all love to tell and hear. It is the story we love to pass on to our children in hopes it will resonate within their soul, destined to change their life forevermore. It is the most important story we will ever hear, other than the story of this same infants life and then eventual death on the cross.

I read a book today by Richard Morgan that said, " When we share from what feels like our deepest, most intimate and personal place, we paradoxically connect to what is most universally bonding. With this kind of story sharing, we discover that we are telling and listening to both our own and one another's stories simultaneously.

Oh, that is so true! How often have you been sitting listening to someone share and felt your heart tug, your stomach flop with a recognition of your own life? Then, your mind begins to play through that event in your life and you identify with what is being said. You process how your event turned out versus what the other person is saying. You think of it again days later, or even that same night. Sometimes it is a happy connection, full of overcoming, "way to go" feelings. Others are full of "I wish", why couldn't I have handled that better, come out stronger and wiser? I prefer a combination of the two; when you hear someone's story and recognize a similarity and then a way to overcome and heal and find the joy.

You see, once Jesus was born and news of his birth began to spread, stories became much more important. Jesus, in his life, told numerous stories. You might say the story of his life here on earth is one huge compilation of stories. And ultimately, all of his stories call us to do the same thing - Reach out to others with our own stories.

Christmas is a season of story-telling, and it seems to me to be the perfect time to remember, and pass on our own stories. As he lived his life here, Jesus called us all to live and learn our own stories, in the hope that we will tell one to someone, that it will touch them, and resonate within them and cause love and light to be in their life. Then, they in turn will touch another. One huge pay it forward with our stories! How incredible will that be?
What life lesson have you learned, or overcome and who will you share it with in celebration of Jesus and the spirit of the Season?

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Perseverance, Purpose; Purpose, Perseverance

It doesn't matter how tough we are, trauma always leaves a scar. It follows us home, it changes our lives. Trauma messes everybody up, but maybe that's the point. All the pain and the fear and the crap. Maybe going through all of that is what keeps us moving forward-- It's what pushes us. Maybe we have to get a little messed up ...before we can step up.
Okay, so I watch Grey's Anatomy and this was the closing on this weeks episode. In my humanity, it resonated deep within me --as dark as it reads, I believe for many of us it hits home.
I have had some conversations with close friends lately about this stench all around us that continues and even seems to grow--of death and destruction and pain and loss and sickness. Is this the end times- or- has it always been, but I'm just old enough to get it now-or- is it just the technology that allows us to see and hear and get instant information about all the trauma as it happens?
Where do we fit in all this or more importantly: how can we go on, how do we fight through? I love the statement above"maybe it's what keeps us moving forward, it's what pushes us."

I love the Lord and his faithfulness. When I opened my bible today and read James 1 this is what I found: (note that it is to the 12 tribes, scattered among the nations- that's all of us, baby!)

James, a servant of God and of the Lord Jesus Christ, To the twelve tribes scattered among the nations: Greetings. 2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds,3 because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4 Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.

Sweet perseverance, given to us, allowed us by the great God Almighty! I am beginning to "get it." See, I think as kids, we just want to be teenagers, and as teenagers we just want to be out of the house, college, work, something. Once we get out of the house, we want a family, a spouse, a fancy career, a house, car. But, still nothing satisfies completely and you begin to realize that all of these next levels doesn't bring the ultimate joy or satisfaction. Especially once you begin to experience trauma and grief, losses of all kinds. I'm not just talking about death, but all of it. Name one thing that has ever made you mad or fearful or frustrated and you've got it. Name one thing or person that has ever had it's hold on you.

You know what I did after I read that verse this morning? This is funny! I journaled a prayer to God that I did not like or want all this testing in my life! see vs 3.
Oh, guess what kind of day I had??? Full of tests! :) Oh, I love Him and his sense of humor and his sweet faithfulness to me. At the end of this day, I still have his love and his comfort and his peace and his promise to walk me through, push me through every testing thing that ever happens!

One of my very favorite verses lately is Psalm 119:75-76
I know, O Lord, that your laws are righteous and in faithfulness you have afflicted me. May your unfailing love be my comfort according to your promise to your servant.

That verse could be a book for me really. I mean I have really messed up over the years, but I make choices now to step up and persevere. I want to thank all of the people that help me persevere and hold me accountable to persevere in Him! I will continue to persevere longing for that completeness and maturity in Him. And, I'm quite sure that I will continue to NOT LIKE being tested.

Although it can be fun to look back on and realize, "whoo, I made it through.. and did okay!"

Monday, March 9, 2009

Sweet Father

So, I have to share something that God keeps bringing to mind. It is a very personal moment that I cherish over and over. My husband, so very wonderful, recently had a vasectomy reversal. This has been an very hard decision for him to come to. He lost a daughter 4 years ago and the pain that a baby stirred in him is often unbearable.
So, along those lines of thought.... We were so very fortunate that God led us to this awesome Christian doctor that performs these reversals as a ministry to families. He performs them in his office and the wife (that's me!) gets to sit at her husband's head and comfort him throughout. Right before he began the procedure, the doctor prayed over us. As he finished the prayer, he ended with "Come quickly, father."
It was the sweetest, most incredible moment right there in that room. Holding Steve's hand at his most unselfish moment. The future unknown but certain.

The possibility of a baby coming to us quickly.... the Christian standpoint of sweet Jesus coming back for our souls.... but, the sweetness that stays with me ,as I journey through this life, is how often he comes to us in our need, in our pain, our longing. He provides the strength to hold on, the courage to go farther and longer. The joy to love, even when we have lost. The freedom to forgive. He comes quickly whenever we call.

Revelation 22:20 (New American Standard Bible)
20 He who testifies to these things says, "Yes, I am coming quickly " Amen. Come, Lord Jesus.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Talk about Purpose!

1 Thessalonians 5:18
The Bible says in everything give thanks, which often seems hard to do -- especially when things don't go exactly as you wanted. I love another version that I found today that says: In everything give praise: for this is the purpose of God in Christ Jesus for you.
So, today we are praising Him for being faithful to our family always and giving us more time with our precious little girl! Victory indeed, my friends!
Praising Him, being thankful for Him and his love, not just what we want out of this world. I could focus on the bad, but I choose to focus on what He gave; and how no matter what, he will always provide for us, time and again. He always has and he always will.
Amen! Jesus, sweet Jesus. Thank you for a voice to praise you with, a story to tell, a life to learn how to seek more of you and a family and friends to love.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Purposeful Victory

I am actually only able to post on this blog because of the love and mercy afforded me by the Holy One. :) I also think that God has a great sense of humor and I rejoice at the thought of knowing that people are actually reading my blog and even if they don't like or agree, He may deposit something in them that begins to change and mold their hearts! Truly, this is what I want all who have misjudged God, or been unsure of His goodness to know: that regardless of your choices in life, your path, He just loves you, he forgives, he waits for you to seek him.

While I speak of "purpose" here, Star's purpose was perhaps the most mighty of all. Hers was a glorious and smiling life, full of love, His love . I do not actually have the pain of the loss of her, I only watch the pain of my incredible husband's loss of her- her father. What I write of in relation to her, is really my observation of his grief. My pain is his pain, and that I feel mightily. But, I must say that to have the love that we have and to be able to support and minister to one another as we face this life (and all those that oppose us brought by Satan's attempt at destruction) is a battle that we both are thoroughly enjoying! If anyone had told me 3 years ago, that we would have the amount of friends that truly love us and stand by us and that we would have been shown God's love and strength so endlessly and FAITHFULLY, I could never have conceived it this mightily! We have more good and true friends now than we have ever had and most importantly, accountability and love in Him! God has used our union for His good and will continue to do so.
God is so gracious and merciful! Remember that, chew on that. Look it up and understand what it means. We are forgiven and we are loved. Loved by the Almighty, the healer, the provider of all.
I have been so blessed as I have learned to listen and hear him when he talks to me. I pray that all who read this site will begin to cultivate a relationship with Jesus, so sweet. I speak supernatural wisdom over you, an enlightening and infilling of his love. Real healing love.
God has told me to expect a victory this week. I have claimed that Victory in Him and I am proclaiming it to all of you. Steven and I and our family are loved and protected. May the God of truth reveal his truth to you.
If you want to pray with us, petition him for favor and his authority to reign. We will continue to seek him, love him, stumble along the way~ as no one is perfect. No weapon formed against us shall prosper! Can I get an AMEN!

Romans 5:1-8 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Thank you, Jesus- we praise your Holy name.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Star's Day

Today is just hard, there is no other way to start off. It is numbing, it is somber. Steve just stays busy which is best really. She would be 8, she has been gone 4 years. There is no recovering other than the love and peace that the Lord offers you. Other than crawling in His lap, sobbing on the floor, not wanting to go to the cemetery because she is not there.
Beth Moore preached on Esther video the other night about "If ________, then _______?" We allow ourselves to be bound by fear of so many things. Guess what phrase is in the Bible more than any other? "Do not be afraid, fear not" Because really, when it is all over, when the worst has happened and we are still here on this earth surrounded by people and life moving forward, what choice do we have but to pick ourselves up, dust off and go on. If the worst happens, after we have cried our eyes out, beat our heads on the floor, all we can do is allow God to love us, to heal us, to carry us through. And he does, while we are laying in bed with the covers over our head, going through the motions numb with pain, he is there. He carries, he provides, he endures, he is, Oh God you are. Thank you, sweet Jesus, that you are. Love your family today. Sing an extra song, extra hug or read an extra book to your little ones.