Star's Day

Today is just hard, there is no other way to start off. It is numbing, it is somber. Steve just stays busy which is best really. She would be 8, she has been gone 4 years. There is no recovering other than the love and peace that the Lord offers you. Other than crawling in His lap, sobbing on the floor, not wanting to go to the cemetery because she is not there.
Beth Moore preached on Esther video the other night about "If ________, then _______?" We allow ourselves to be bound by fear of so many things. Guess what phrase is in the Bible more than any other? "Do not be afraid, fear not" Because really, when it is all over, when the worst has happened and we are still here on this earth surrounded by people and life moving forward, what choice do we have but to pick ourselves up, dust off and go on. If the worst happens, after we have cried our eyes out, beat our heads on the floor, all we can do is allow God to love us, to heal us, to carry us through. And he does, while we are laying in bed with the covers over our head, going through the motions numb with pain, he is there. He carries, he provides, he endures, he is, Oh God you are. Thank you, sweet Jesus, that you are. Love your family today. Sing an extra song, extra hug or read an extra book to your little ones.